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ha! you need your eyes? git gud you're just not on my level
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thinking really hard about logging into my old tumblr acc after being gone for like a year and a half cause i stumbled upon a post that led me to my old mutuals and i teared up a lil </3 but also i feel so ashamed i left without saying a word to anyone aaaa
#like i genuinely feel so bad for simply disappearing from people's lives :c#i used to talk to some of them daily and like even had plans to see one of them on holiday to another country?? like that level of close#and then well my mental health went to shit i took a semester off uni and disappeared from my irl friends' lives too for a good 6 months#some of my mutuals had my ig and we followed each other but i also haven't really been there much since dissappearing last year so#but i just snooped into some of their accounts and seeeing what they're up to made me want to talk to them sooo bad#everyone was so cool and kind and i miss them so much it's just i feel so guilty and also don't even know if i'm able to mantain constant#contact and conversations with people now. like it's been even hard for me to stay in touch with my irl friends aaa#why must my brain hate me so much and not let me socialize !! i used to be such an extroverted person what the fuck happened!!#i know some of them messaged me worried and i felt so guilty for not responding but i saw those dms when i was very much deppressed#so i never answered and now i feel like it's too late GOD!!#anyways at least it was nice snooping and seeing how they're doing i genuinely wish them only good things they're fucking great#maybe i just need to suck it up and just go back and talk to people again but i get so overwhelmed just thinking about it!!#okay it's like 4 am i'm posting this and maybe deleting it in the morning sorry for the rant i just am feeling a lot !!
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except that im mentally dead, i’m good
#i know its my concerta crash 80% but man being outside of my comfortzone for hours#does things to me too. like clockwork the mental exhaustion hits at 15 and its like someone pulled the plug#brain stopped working properly sorry only simple words used for me now i cant process#i got praise at work today tho so that made me feel too happy....#its deppressing how happy i am to hear anything encouraging or someone saying i do good#not hearing any of that growing up just made it something so major for me now#i'm going to be so fucking dead friday tho. hate how much energy goes away from me even if i just do small things#i know its my brain and how it works......... but my god...... i'd like an 'full energy battery' thats not normal peoples like 50%#cant tell if its my period thus my hormones speaking or if im in an episode#i think im just so fucking lonely haha....... i always feel that way but since moving on my own its bad#and the last moth its been worse too.... idk man. medication making me feel fine but also im like (: i need love and closeness#doesnt help that all my fave people have been away for diffrent reasons so i just feel lonely#not that im helping the matter bc im not contacting or telling anyone bc that would be out of line and bad so im just#here as usual i suppose? can still not get passed the idea that i exsist outside others needs for me#stuck in the mindset of always having to put others first and do whatever they want and idk how to start. im already an#big enough problem for people i dont want to make it worse for anyone dealing with me#miranda talking shit#negative#???
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if you're writing more of your 'comforting your insecure boyfriend' series maybe I suggest Hinata and Yamaguchi? My boys deserve it.
comforting your insecure bf
part 1 . part 2 . part 3
— ♬ NSFW, MINORS DNI, gn reader, based on this post
— ♬ omg i'm sorry this was late anon i was in a deppression but this brought me back to life. and yes, our boys deserve some comforting too ;)
— ♬ Hinata Shoyo
You and Hinata Shoyo go way back in high school. You and he were from different schools and had a fateful encounter during training camp in his second year. You were already in your third year when you met him. You were the kindhearted and quiet manager from one of the rival teams. What captured Hinata's interest was initially your looks, he might be exaggerating if he said you're the most ethereal person he has ever met.
You had glistening bright eyes, a lovely smile, and a melodic laugh. Not to mention, you happened to be taller than him! Your personality was in contrast to his. You were calm and collected, preferred to listen than talk, and genuinely enjoyed quiet moments. Unlike Hinata, who was a burst of energy and always searching for something new to try, especially when related to volleyball.
Despite his outgoing personality, Hinata found himself beyond shy when interacting with you. Perhaps, it had something to do with his silly crush on you. He'd avert his eyes away when you greeted him, stammer a reply, and dash away from you. Fortunately, you didn't interpret this as him having a particular dislike for you. If anything, you found it undeniably adorable.
So, on the last day of that fateful training camp, you approached him for the first time. Hinata went short-circuited as you stood in front of him. His heart was palpitating and he was afraid he was going to explode like a ticking timebomb at any second.
"Hey"
"H—Hi"
"Do you want to exchange phone numbers?"
What?
You were holding your phone while you suppressed a laugh when the shorter male's face burst into color. God, you just wanted to pinch his cheeks. Immediately, Hinata fishes for his phone in his pocket.
"Sure!"
You and the spiker had been texting each other nonstop since you both exchanged your numbers at training camp. You updated each other with even the tiniest things over the passing seasons, it was beyond endearing. You both couldn't deny there was a hint of growing affection as time flew by. Hinata was so refreshing and he fills you with a burst of energy, like an energy drink. It was after the new year when you and Hinata agreed to meet each other in person.
With flushed cheeks, you and he met each other dressed in layered clothes because winter had recently passed. You two visited the shrine, talked, and got food. The longer Hinata looked at you, the more he realized he was inevitably falling for you. Before the wonderful day ended, Hinata gained the courage to wrap you in his scarf and took your gloved hands. Your cheeks felt warmer than summer that day.
"I like you, [Name]"
He confesses. You could not contain yourself because you threw your arms around the smaller male and kissed him on the cheek. Hinata almost fainted on the spot. After that day, both of you decided to start dating. It was a year later when you both became official. Somehow with you in college and him in his third year, you both made it work.
Hinata was the perfect combination of a gentleman and a sweetheart that it made you swoon. Despite the height difference, he always carried you with ease. He gave you thoughtful gifts during your birthday and anniversaries. And your parents adored him so much too. You truly felt Hinata was the missing half of your soul.
"I'm going to Brazil"
You turn your head to look at him but Hinata avoids your eyes. Both of you were overlooking the sea after a fun date. You raised a brow.
"Why?"
You asked and he explained how he wanted to train in outdoor volleyball in a different country, he told you how he wanted to try different things, and he said that he wanted to find more ways to grow as an athlete. You chuckled. Yep, it was definitely something Hinata would do and you do admire him for that quality. Yet, you couldn't deny the ache in your chest thinking about how you'd be separated from him for god knows how long.
Hinata's lip wobbles when you reach down to clutch his hand, he can tell how hurt you will be because of his decision. However, you reassure him with a smile. All you want is what's best for him and what makes him happy. And this fills his heart to the brim.
"I'll be back before you know it"
"I'll be waiting for you, Sho"
You kissed him. Hinata realizes you were wearing the scarf he gave to you after he first confessed how he liked you, and he goes teary-eyed. Eventually, you accompanied him to the airport and gave him the tightest hug and longest kiss you could offer. Hinata couldn't wait to return to you. As you two talked over before, video calls were frequent. Even if over time it wasn't often, you two always maintained a connection.
Brazil seemed to be a fitting place for your boyfriend. All the pictures he sent to you of his progress showed how happy he was and you couldn't be more proud. He'd tell you about his journey with outdoor volleyball and learning Portuguese during video calls. One time he sent a picture of him and Oikawa Tooru coincidentally meeting there.
Although you felt lonely without Hinata by your side, you pushed through, because you knew he was bound to come home soon. Soon enough, Hinata returned to Japan and played in his new team the MSBY Black Jackals. You immediately got tickets to see him play against Adlers. You couldn't believe your eyes when Hinata made his entrance in the court after many years apart, tears welled up in your eyes when your boyfriend grinned at you.
He was here, he's finally home.
But god, it was hard to focus on what was going on with the match. Hinata looked so much hotter that it made you involuntary drool. First of all, the tan looks so good on him. And his muscles? Oh man, you couldn't wait to get some alone time with your boyfriend. You couldn't help the shameless ogling since you've been separated from him for so long.
You didn't mind who won the match, you were proud that your boyfriend was having a blast on the court. But when MSBY won, you leaped up from your seat and clapped for your boyfriend. Immediately after the match, Hinata went searching for you.
"Shoyo!"
"[Name]!"
You laughed as you ran up into his arms. Hinata scoops you up effortlessly and spins you around like you weigh nothing. You cling to him tightly with your arms around his neck while he presses tender kisses against your face. It felt like coming home. People watching the scene whistled and giggled with each other.
"I'm home, babe"
"Welcome home, love"
You two walked hand in hand as Hinata introduced you to his team. They all cheered and gave him wolfish grins. Hinata tries to shush them down with a blush when they invite you to go out for celebratory drinks. Your boyfriend's eyes bulged out of their sockets when you accepted the invitation.
So here you were, dancing in the club with a drink in hand. Sure, you were tipsy but you were far from drunk. You vibed with Bokuto Koutaro and Miya Atsumu from Hinata's team. Your boyfriend admittedly had one too many shots than he planned. He finished another round of alcohol before settling down near the bartender. His teammate, Sakusa Kiyoomi was there scolding him with a frown.
He spots you within the crowd dancing with Bokuto and Atsumu, he had the sudden urge to join too but his vision was beginning to spin. God, he hadn't drunk this much since his first year in Brazil. He tries to sober himself up with water from the bartender. From the looks of it, you were having the time of your life with his two teammates.
Slowly, a disgusting feeling rose within Hinata. No, he didn't feel like vomiting. He frowned when Atsumu spun you around on the dancefloor. It felt vague but familiar. He later realizes it was jealousy. Hinata sat up straight in his stool, that was childish! He's no longer a high schooler! He shouldn't be feeling green with envy. But he couldn't stop watching you laugh with Bokuto and Atsumu.
That envy eventually melted. Damn, he hated drinking because it made him emotional! Hinata thinks back to you and thought how lonely you must've been without him. He thought about how unfair it was for you to leave you for his improvement. You were probably aching with yearning for his touch and love while he was on the other side of the globe. You must be frustrated when you couldn't video call him often because of the different time zones.
Hinata's breath hitches. You're probably thinking about replacing him. God, what a horrible boyfriend he was! He's so selfish and you had every right to feel angry about it. Sakusa watched the shorter male stumble up from his seat and exit the club, he was about to follow him out but he hesitated. When you go searching for your boyfriend, Sakusa informs you that he has left the club.
You left multiple missed calls as you tried to contact Hinata. You sat outside the club with the rest of his teammates, worrying for half an hour. You almost collapsed with relief when he texted you "hotel" after so many attempts.
Hinata was lying on top of his hotel bed with his eyes puffy from sobbing. He felt so bad for abandoning you and making you worry. You truly don't deserve him. Suddenly, there's a soft knock on the door followed by your voice softly calling him. Hinata didn't respond as he sulked on his bed.
"Please, love. I just want to talk"
You pleaded. Unable to resist you, Hinata pulls himself up and trudges towards the door. You swiftly cupped his face in your hands when you saw the dejected look on his face.
"What's wrong, Sho?"
"I think we should break up"
Your heart comes to a screeching halt but you furiously shake your head. You can smell the alcohol in his breath and you know he was only intoxicated. Hinata didn't stop you from entering his hotel room as you shut the door and ushered him back to bed.
"Babe, we're not breaking up. You're just drunk"
"But I'm a horrible boyfriend!"
Hinata buried his face against his hands and the sight made your chest ache.
"Shoyo, you're not"
"Yes, I am. I'm so...selfish! And! And cruel! I left you here in Japan while I was being happy in Brazil"
You sighed as you picked his hands off from his face and held them tightly in your hands. You gave him a stern look.
"That's not true, Sho"
"Yes, it is! You should leave me and be happy with another guy that won't leave you. Find someone who's...*hiccup* taller! And better than volleyball!"
He turns to you with teary-eyes
"You should go date UshiWaka instead—OUCH!"
You scowled as you pinched his ear, harshly. Hinata winced as he saw the look on your face. You had enough of his drunken nonsense.
"I'm not going to break up with you, you idiot! And I'm not especially dating UshiWaka!"
You yell and your boyfriend whimpers at your scolding.
"You're drunk and none of those insecure thoughts are true!"
For emphasis, you force him to look at the mirror near the bed by grabbing his jaw and twisting his face towards the mirror, Hinata sniffs.
"Look how hot you are! You got a tan and you look more...beefier!"
"But I left you—"
"NO YOU DIDN'T, YOU DUMBASS!"
This time you smacked him in the head, which you immediately regretted. Was there any way for you to convince your dumbass boyfriend that he's the best in the world? While Hinata rubbed the place where you smacked him in the head, his heart froze when he saw a dark look on your face.
Oh no, was he in danger?
Nope, he was way far from danger. Hinata's safe, in your arms, sobbing, half-naked, and with his rock-hard dick in your hand. You were positioned behind him with your face buried against the crook of your boyfriend's neck. Hinata's breath was labored as his vision went hazy from pleasure.
"[Name]—ah!"
He whined and involuntarily bucked his hips upward when you began massaging his cockhead. Your cheek rubs against his right temple as you place chaste kisses down his neck. Hinata shudders. It seemed like he was suddenly sober with the way you began jerking him off in front of the mirror. There was no way he could've predicted this at all.
"Look at the mirror, look how pretty you are, Sho"
You purred against his ear. His eyes met his reflection and he nearly rolled his eyes back. He was half-naked with his legs spread and his orange locks were disheveled. He positively looked like a hot mess, moaning and sweating while you gave him a mindblowing handjob from behind. Fuck, your hand felt like magic around his cock. He let out a strangled moan when you started playing with his balls.
"Oh? Does my beloved boyfriend like it when I play with his balls?"
"[Name] please—"
"Do you want me to go faster?"
"Yes, hah—please"
When the pace of your hand turns faster, Hinata goes cross-eyed. He can feel his orgasm approaching and it's stealing his every breath. Your free hand grabs his jaw and forces him to watch himself fall apart in front of the mirror.
"You're the sweetest and kindest boyfriend in the world, Shoyo"
You whispered against his ear. Hinata whimpers as tears begin to gather in his lashline. The look on your face was sincere and tender and it soothes the ache in his heart.
"You always make me smile with your funny jokes and your cute smile"
"You have a heart of gold"
"My boyfriend is so sweet, loving, hardworking, and talented"
You showered him with compliments and it makes Hinata lightheaded. He feels like he's getting drunk again from the pleasure of your hand vigorously pumping his cock and from your affectionate reassurances. Suddenly, the pace of your hand slows down as you look at your boyfriend in the eye through the mirror.
"Do you want to know what I was thinking about when I heard you were coming home?"
Hinata inhales sharply as he catches his breath, his hands were clutching on both of your thighs as he gripped on for dear life. He gulps.
"Wh—what?"
You chuckled darkly as you went in to bite his earlobe with a devilish smile.
"I was thinking about you bending me in half and fucking me in your hotel room until I couldn't walk for a week"
With the confession, it plants a lewd and tantalizing imagery in your boyfriend's head. Fuck, were you thinking about that all along while you were waiting for him to get home? All this time, you just wanted Hinata to dick you down? Oh, he loved that thought as much as it embarrassed him. He does want to bury his cock in you until you saw stars—
"Ah, ah, ah! [Name]!"
Hinata screams your name as his orgasm crashes down on him. You watched your boyfriend burst through the seams with a choked sob as he threw his head back. Spurts of his cum coat both your hands and his abdomen. You gently guided him through his release. As soon as Hinata's vision re-focuses, he sees you smiling at him through the mirror. He couldn't help but smile back.
"How's that? Did that get rid of those stupid insecure thoughts, Sho?"
"It did, thank you, [Name]"
He reaches to kiss you on the cheek and you giggle. You were prepared to help Hinata clean up and cuddle to sleep with him but he suddenly grabs your arm. You flinch and look at your boyfriend, your heart skips a beat when you recognize a carnal look in his eyes.
"...Can I bend you in half and fuck you until you couldn't walk?"
Hinata asks politely. You can't even answer because he's already tugging your pants down with an eager grin on his face.
— ♬ Yamaguchi Tadashi
You perceived Yamaguchi Tadashi as a modest and hardworking co-worker. Some would say he's a cute guy and you'd agree. He'd show up early for work and would greet everyone with a smile. It was because of that smile that urged you to wake up early so that he could greet you. Your closest colleges would tease you during lunch break about your tiny crush on the guy, it felt silly blushing about it because it made you feel more like a high schooler than an adult.
Sooner though, you tried to make subtle advances on Yamaguchi. You'd begin to dress nicely for work and he'd notice and then compliment you. If you got to work earlier, you'd buy him coffee which he was grateful for. You began ditching your friends during lunch break to ask him if he wanted to eat lunch with you. And you and he began hanging out outside of work.
You continued for a month and became close with Yamaguchi. In return, he would share snippets about his life. He offered you glimpses of his interests like his favorite kind of Onigiri and how he used to play volleyball back in high school. After a long period of denial, you recognize that you have become head over heels with Yamaguchi.
Naturally, you panicked. You didn't know how to deal with these affections for your co-worker. You began to overthink. Would he ever return your feelings? Should you confess? Is he even your type? These thoughts send you into a frenzy that you can't sleep properly at night. One day, you arrive at work with a fever. You didn't recognize it at first until you found yourself unable to perform any work that day.
"[Name]? Are you okay?"
Yamaguchi peeked at you and saw you with your head resting on top of your desk. Your skin was flushed so he instinctively went to check your temperature by pressing the back of his hand against your forehead.
"You caught a fever! You should go home!"
He insisted. You groaned as you cast a tired look at him. Yamaguchi was sending you a concerned look that made your skin more flushed at the thought of how he must've genuinely cared for you. So, in a feverish delirium, you suddenly confessed to him.
"I'm in love with you, Tadashi"
Yamaguchi momentarily froze. Eventually, he gently leads you by the hand, wraps you in his jacket, and takes you home. You couldn't forget how he took care of you. He bought you medicine and cooked you soup. He constantly checked on your temperature. It was no surprise that you had a quick recovery. You were eternally grateful for his kindness.
"Oh, how will I ever repay you, Tadashi?"
"Go on a date with me"
He replies and your heart leaps out of your chest. It turns out, Yamaguchi reciprocated your feelings. Your romance with him began smoothly. You and he became famous for being the co-workers who fell in love with each other and started dating. There was an onslaught of teasing and bantering for a while from both of your colleagues.
You and Yamaguchi became official six months later. He took you out on cute dates and never missed an anniversary. He introduces you to his closest friends from high school and you introduce him to your family. Everything felt like a picturesque love story, that's what you thought.
Although Yamaguchi was happy with you, he didn't feel worthy of everything. He used to have trouble with accepting his worth even back when he was playing volleyball in high school. He had doubts about his abilities and took a long time of encouragement from other people to help him believe in his capabilities. But for some reason, it's beginning to feel bad again.
Somehow, within himself, Yamaguchi finds it difficult to accept how ordinary he is. Perhaps after being surrounded by extraordinary and talented people such as his friends back in high school, he's convinced that there isn't anything special about him. He's just...ordinary. And he's afraid that you'd grow bored of him or expect something from him that he couldn't offer.
Your boyfriend has been quiet during the following days. He's been reassuring you that he was okay or that he was just tired from work, but know him well enough that something was bothering him. Now, you're cuddling under the sheets with him while a movie plays in the background. You were relaxing with Yamaguchi after a stressful week at work. Usually, you and your boyfriend would talk or joke around during peaceful moments like these, but he's uncharacteristically quiet.
"Babe? Are you okay?"
"...Yeah, I'm good"
He answers distractedly and it bothers you. Yamaguchi sees you sitting up and your hand reaches to touch his cheek. He instinctively leans against your touch, but the look of uncertainty etched across his features. He felt guilty for not sharing his troubles with you, after all, you wanted an honest relationship with him. But his insecurities were preventing him from being open with you. He was afraid that you would leave him if you found out he was lying to you. Yamaguchi takes a sharp inhale.
"...[Name], do you think I'm boring?"
He asks. You raised a brow at him and tilted your head.
"No, why would you think of that?"
"I know you said we should be honest and...and I just want you to tell me if you're getting...bored of me"
"Babe, I'm not bored of you"
You rolled your eyes. Yamaguchi averts his gaze as he peels himself away from your touch. Concern flashes through your orbs.
"Tadashi? What's wrong?"
"I...I think I'm not the right guy for you, [Name]"
Your boyfriend replies as he faces away from you. There was an offended look on your face, you crawled towards him and embraced him from behind.
"That's not true, honey. I knew you were the one for me when you took care of me when I was sick"
"But...but what if..."
"What if...?"
"What if you grow sick of me?"
You frowned. Yamaguchi sounded like he was on the verge of sobbing and it honestly sent an awful feeling in your chest.
"What if you grow sick of me? What if I can't give you what you want anymore? What if I can't be enough for you? What if I'm stuck with being ordinary?"
He began to ramble and you have to stop him by grabbing his shoulders and shaking them. You shook your head and gave him a stern look.
"That's stupid. I'll never be sick of you, love. And what's wrong with being ordinary?"
Yamaguchi doesn't seem to be reassured when he turns away and stares at his reflection in your large mirror by the bedside. He takes in his features, his ordinary features. There were dark bags under his eyes, his complexion was pale, and his lips looked dry. He buries his face against his hands and feels his eyes grow wet. The sight of your boyfriend in despair because of his inner demons was heartbreaking for you. If only there was a way to comfort him, to knock some sense out of him, to...
An idea spawns in your head. Your eyes trailed on your boyfriend's hunched figure. You gulped. Out of all the ideas possible, an...inappropriate one has to be the one that seemed foolproof. You wanted to hold back thinking Yamaguchi wouldn't be okay with it, but the idea seemed so...attractive and tempting that your mind screamed for you to give it a try. Who knows? Your beloved boyfriend might enjoy it.
Puzzled, Yamaguchi can feel your hand wrapping around his waist. He was about to pull them away until your hands began to pry on the waistband of his sweatpants. His breath hitched as you positioned from behind him and pulled his pants down. An embarrassed yelp exits his mouth when you expose his lower half.
"[Name]! Wh—what are you do—doing—oh shit!"
You wrapped your delicate hands around his dick and he hisses. Yamaguchi's heart begins to palpitate wildly against his ears. He scrambles as his hands reach out to grab the sheets. His breath comes to a halt when you begin to give languid strokes on his cock. When your boyfriend melts under your touch you take it as a sign to continue.
"You doing good, baby?"
Yamaguchi nods as you smiled and ran your hand on his cockhead to smear the forming pre-cum all over his length. He shudders at the intoxicating sensation. He whimpers when you experimentally began toying with his ballsack. One of his hands went to grab your thigh. You leaned your face against his ear and exhaled.
"God, look at you, Tadashi"
Reluctantly, Yamaguchi trails his eyes to the mirror by the bedside. His eyes went wide at the lewd sight. He was half-naked with his fully-erect cock in your hands while you stroked him from behind. Sweat gathered all over his body and his skin was flushed. He looked pathetically submissive under your touch. It would be a lie if he said he didn't like it.
"Does my boyfriend want to cum?"
"Oh fuck—yes, please"
With his plead, your hand around his member speeds up. The pace sends him whining out loud and throwing his head back. Suddenly, you grabbed his jaw and forced him to look towards the mirror.
"I want you to look at yourself when you cum like a good boy"
You whispered hotly against his ear and his breathing just stops. Yamaguchi goes cross-eyed when you began to jerk him off even faster.
"When I look in the mirror, I don't see an ordinary man. I see my sweetest boyfriend in the world"
"It's heartbreaking to know you see yourself as boring when you were everything to me, Tadashi"
"No ordinary man would be more capable of stealing my heart than you, darling"
Yamaguchi gazes at you in the eye through the mirror and his heart simply melts. He knows you meant every word and at that moment he never felt so loved. You laugh as you playfully bite the shell of his ear.
"With you moaning like that babe, I think I want to call in sick tomorrow so you can fuck me until the morning"
Oh fuck
The idea was enough to send Yamaguchi to the edge. You watched with satisfaction as he wildly bucks his hips up with his eyes rolled back, completely at the mercy of his release. His rich cum landed on your hands as you stared with fascination. After his earth-shattering orgasm, Yamaguchi goes limp in your arms. You wait until he catches his breath.
"How is my hardworking, handsome, and sweet boyfriend doing?"
He chuckles as he sits upright and regains his composure. Your boyfriend turns around and gives you a tender kiss. He gently strokes your hair.
"Thank you, [Name]. I needed that"
"Anything for you, Tadashi"
You smile brightly up at him. The movie in the background ended with the credits rolling, Yamaguchi glances at the clock and hums in thought.
"I think I'm going to call in sick tomorrow"
"Huh? Why?"
There was a suggestive look on your boyfriend's face that it sends an exciting shiver down your spine.
"How about we both call in sick tomorrow and let me fuck you how you like it, yeah?"
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#— ♬ with love; kitasgloves#— ♬ signed by; kitasgloves#haikyuu#haikyuu fanfiction#haikyuu fic#haikyuu smut#haikyuu x reader#hinata shouyou#hinata shoyo x reader#hinata x reader#hinata x you#yamaguchi tadashi#yamaguchi tadashi x reader#yamaguchi x reader#yamaguchi x you
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WHB Incorrect quotes#37 Girl Dad
I need Solomon to suffer a little bit...after having the PLEASURE of being kidnapped by Leviathan and his goonies...GET YOUR FUCKIN DOG B-YES IT BITES-...So Solomon is getting what he wants a daughter...spending time with Teenage F! Mc...
Somewhere On Earth hiding from others, Solomon and God are mingling with humans in a bar...
Solomon*Eating with a spaced-out look* -You know what Teenage Girls don't care about?...
God*Looking at him weirdly*
Solomon: Is your feelings...*Sees God's confused expression and cackles and looks at this new drinking buddies*HAHAA-OH MAN I'm sure your daughter has said something to your face and-
Solomon: "I would punch a grown man in the mouth for saying that shit to me" Can I tell the shit she said to me-
Solomon starts to explain how he took you to the beach for bonding time
Solomon: WE WERE AT THE BEACH-and'm at the beach wearing beach attire you know shorts, no shirt...She is reading a book by the way they deliver their insults WITH ZERO EMOTIONS...right to your face super matter-of-fact...
At the said beach with you reading a book with Solomon's snacks nestled around you, and passing by Solomon
Teenage!Mc*Looks at him briefly*...Nice Titties
Solomon*Freezes and looks as you sit down under the shade*...THESE are pecs...
Teenage!Mc*Not looking back at him*Maybe they USED to be...but those are titties now
-Back to Meeting-
Solomon*Deppressed his face on the table*-RIGHT TO MY FUCKING FACE-
God*Is fascinated by the idea of...snarky children*...
Bar Buddies*Who have daughters pat Solomon's back*...
I swear...I can see Solomon putting something weird in my/mc food just for him to experience how...I/mc was...as a teenager to be living his dream of experiencing that...he bit off more then he can chew
#what in hell is bad#what in hell is bad x reader#what in hell is bad x mc#whb#whb x mc#whb x reader#whb solomon#whb god#girl dad solomon#mc is tired#i just wanna go home back to minhyeok#whb fluff#teenager mc#whb incorrect quotes#incorrect quotes
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pairing: Johnnie Guilbert ♡︎ Reader
warnings: ୭̥⋆*。 crying, major deppression
summary: ʚ you go through a depressive episode and Johnnie helps ɞ
Words: 1777
An: so this was horrible for me to write and I'm so so sorry
Guilt was racking through your body. You don't have any energy left in your body nowadays, it's the reason you haven't posted in almost two months. It's the reason your room and subsequent house are filthy. It's the reason why no matter how hard you try you never ever seem to fit in.
Your cheeks are tear-stained, and you haven’t washed your face in god knows how long. You've showered sure, but you haven't done your proper skincare in weeks.
Your depression has been a part of your life for as long as you can remember. It gets better, sometimes, other times it drains you of everything you have. Every day felt like a battle for you. You sigh looking at your phone it is almost 4 pm.
Your boyfriend, Johnnie, had texted you almost 2 hours ago. The rough nights you experienced led you to wake up late in the afternoon, so the plan usually involved Johnnie heading over whenever you woke up or after he was done filming.
He has wished you a good ‘morning’ and to let him know when he could head over. You wanted to indulge, truly you did, but Johnnie didn't deserve that. He had enough in his life to worry about. There was no need to worry him with your pathetic life.
The issue is you couldn't keep him on the hook like this. You sighed picking up your phone, you numbly typed out a plain excuse, telling him today wouldn't work. You put the phone down and roll over in your bed again.
You sat curled in a little ball staring out your window. There were crows sitting on top of the next-door building. You sat and quietly observed the birds, watching them move side to side. You wish life were that simple, all you had to worry about was eating and flying around.
You didn't have to worry about the eternally crushing depression that sucks your life form. Your face heated up again with the thought of Johnnies, tears pooling in your eyes.
You missed him so much. He was such a caring loving person, it wasn't always easy for him to show that. He had his ways though. Always make sure you eat, get decent sleep, etc.
Your relationship was usually the opposite way, you know just how much he struggled. You were going to be there for absolutely all of it no matter what. Nothing was going to stop you from loving him. He shouldn't have to worry about you.
But he did, it was the reason why when he saw your texting while editing he immediately called you. You were always such a beacon of positivity for him. He knew the signs, from himself and his friends. You had stopped eating unless he forced you to.
You were wearing long sleeves and sweatpants only. You never went out, just stayed in your room. He can't even remember the last time you said more than a few words to him in a single conversation. He placed the phone next to his ear and nervously tapped his foot on the floor of his room.
“Hello?” you answered with a croak. Johnnie never called you unless he really really missed your voice. Which for him was usually the case when it was nighttime. Those were extreme cases, he hated talking on the phone and absolutely despised it. Too many nerves for him.
He didn't speak for a second, half expecting you not to answer for some reason. “Hey,” he starts. You hold your breath for a second knowing what the conversation was about before he even started to speak.
“Can I please come over? I'm worried about you.”Johnnie says over the phone, fiddling with the zipper of his jacket. You inhaled with a shaky breath. “You can. It won't be a lot of fun though,” you mumbled back to him fiddling with your piercing.
“Well- when can I come over?” he asked. This awkward tension filled the phone line, the systematic white noise causing your heart to beat heavily. “Whenever you want Johnnie I'm not leaving the house anytime ever,” you reply sarcastically earning an annoyed grunt from Johnnie.
“I can be over soon, I'll let you know when my Uber shows up and I'm on my way ok?” He knew your bad attitude was because of something, and no matter how much it was upsetting him he needed to be here for you.
You on the other hand could cry from guilt. How dare you be a pathetic sack all day, cancel on your boyfriend only for him to kindly offer to be there for you and you are rude to him? On top of that, he has to pay to drive to YOUR house! “No Johnnie don't call an Uber I will come pick you up.” you offered, standing up and searching for your keys.
“I thought you weren't leaving.” he rebutted. You took a deep breath, “but I love you, so I'm not gonna make you pay to cheer me up ok?” you spoke finally finding your keys. “I don't want to stress you out.” you heard over the phone.
You tried to fight his kindness but after a minute it was clear he wasn't going to let you drive. Today was a relaxing day for you, at least it was supposed to be.
You were a protector, it's what made Johnnie fall so in love with you. You were so kind and caring for him, constantly taking care of him when he had those days when he just couldn't take it anymore.
You never did it with the intention to receive it though. So when Johnnie knocked on your door and you trudged to open it for him it shocked you how much he did care.
You tried to make yourself look strong but as your eyes locked tears pooled crowding your vision. You turned away from the door and him as you covered your face with your hands.
You couldn't stop the pull of dread that filled your heart. You felt your knees touch the floor as you collapsed onto the ground. You could hear the door close and Johnnie rushed to your side. He was speaking about something, maybe he was saying how you were going to be ok.
Maybe he was begging you to tell him what was going on. You weren't sure. All you could focus on was ringing in your ears, the thumping of your heart, and the crocodile tears that leaped from your face.
His hands ran against your back and shoulders. Eventually, you were able to look up at him. He wasn't wearing any makeup, just a hat with a button-up and skinny jeans. All you could mutter out was a broken “I'm sorry.”
Your voice cracked and shattered as you spoke. Your boyfriend and the love of your life stared at you back, his face heating up his own tears forming. He sat with you behind your couch on the floor.
“Let's move to the couch,” he said his voice coming out falsely confident, you shook your head, yes taking his hand that helped you up. He wasn't used to helping people like this, he would try his best and maybe give advice.
But he tried to do what you did with him. He sat you down on the couch, taking note of your appearance. You had dulled messy hair, dark almost permanent circles under your eyes, you looked pale and gaunt your face seemingly shrunk.
He rushed away from you, getting you a cup of water, something you did for him without fail. He set it in your hands knowing the coolness would ground you. He moved to your side sitting down next to you. He hesitantly placed his hand on your chest feeling your heartbeat.
It was rapid and intense as he pulled you close to him, wrapping his other arm around you and tilting his head on your shoulder. As you slowly sipped the water between hiccups he felt your heartbeat slow and your breath wasn't so rapid. You were calming down.
Once you finished your cup you set it down and shifted so your head was resting on his almost bare chest. He moved his hat off and sat normally on the couch as you cuddled up to him. He wasn't sure what he should say that could help.
After all, he wasn't very good at this but he so desperately wanted to be. “I don't know when this really started for me. As long as I can remember I was different. Things that seemed so small for other people worried me so much,” you spoke, finally breaking the silence.
He knew some of your past and struggles but nothing too deep. He wanted to hear them from you. This was the best way to do that. He didn't say anything yet, he just looked down and observed you as you played against him.
“I felt this feeling when I was all alone and it was cold and rainy outside. It was almost like a shiver up my spine. I was feeling so safe and protected all alone like that, if I hadn't frozen I could have stayed in the rain forever.” he wasn't sure where exactly your story was going but he knew you and he also knew it was important.
“I was so comfortable with being alone, that stayed with me. There are days more often than not when I cannot do anything. I sit and rot in my bed all day, I don't sleep, I don't eat, I don't do anything.” Johnnie did not know that. He knew since he was busy with filming you often just stayed home.
It doesn't sound like that was a good thing, however. “I am drowning but I've pretended to stay afloat for so long. I'm so fucking tired Johnnie I don't know what I'm going to do anymore.” Your voice was calm but powerful.
You didn't move but you could hear Johnnie's heartbeat increase. “I haven't taken care of myself in so long.” this was whispered, for a second you weren't sure if you had said it out loud. You suppose you did when Johnnie pulled you away from you, your confession hung on the air like wet clothes.
He took a second before he nearly engulfed you with a hug. He squeezed your whole body tight, “Please don't leave.” was all he whispered in your ear. He cradled your body tightly. He slowly started to rock you back and forth. The lull of his body slowly sent you to sleep.
#jake and johnnie#johnnie guilbert#johnnie guilbert fluff#johnnie guilbert x reader#johnnie guilbert x you#johnnie x you
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this is the kind of comment fanfic authors want (text under cut)
[Comment by lolyukimaxlol on a fanfic titled "just one bite" on ao3]
omg yester you grossed ME out how the fuck dare you??? that was literally so DISGUSTING of you???? and i don't know how the fuck I should feel???
I fell in a deppression, there, mate! I fell in the depression and the anorexia and trying to hold back the nausea and GRIAN leaves HIMMY for DEAD. and he leaves him to DIE then and THERE and joel and jimmy don't even KISS what the fuck is WRONG WITH YOU?????? GET THERAPY YOU MORON
I'm genuinely. I feel DISGUSTED. you-- yester! I hate you! i hate whumptober! I just wanted to read somethjing and this-- this makes me wanna throw up? he was so SAD, yester. So sad! and you... I'm actually--- You--- You're disgusting.
I'm gonna kill you in your sleep and in minecraft and in writing and i AHTE YOUUY SO MUCH WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT???? WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT????? WHY. You have taken my heart out of my chest AND FED IT TO GEMÙ i actually HATE YOYU SO MUCH i hate you!!!!!
HWAT SICK TWISTED PLEASURE DID THIS BRING TO YOUR HEART??? WHYAT PLEASURE DID SUBMITTING ME TO THIS BRING TO YOU? JOY??? YOU'RE SICK, AND I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT, AND I HATE YOU, AND I HATE YOU AND I HATE YOU AND IHAAAAAAAAAAAAATEEEEEEEEEE YOU AND YOU'RE THE WORSE AUTHOR EVER BECAUSE-- HOW THE FUCK THE FUCK DARE YOU???? YOU--- OH MY GOD. i hate you
/pos ig?
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#fanfiction#fanfic#ao3#i'm cryyying#this person calls me yester on ao3 bc my url is theyesterdayshow
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Hii! I've sent in requests before and I hope it's okay to send more. ^^
How about a survivor who was made into a killer by the entity after they were rejected by the other survivors? Could be because they were too nice and sympathetic with the killers, or they saw them as not good enough. S/o is pretty deppressed after the transformation and is scared to approach the killers since they're afraid of rejection.
This with maybe Ghostface, Legion (Any member is fine!), Leon, Huntress, and Wraith? You can remove any or add any if you'd like!! Thank you! ❤
Absolutely. You're so sweet. Requests help this blog stay afloat .I hope I don't disappoint. I had to think a bit more about this one.
With a depressed Reader who was a survivor but was turned into a killer.
Ghostface, Legion (Joey), Leon, Huntress, Wraith
Ghostface
Sick! Fresh meat!
The more killers the better.
But you're still afraid of him.
Not like he can kill you anymore.
Then again, he could see the other survivors treating you like shit.
He remembered you in trials.
You actually apologized for hitting him with a pallet.
He still killed you, but was less intense about it than he would other survivors.
You were rejected by the other survivors.
So maybe you're afraid of being rejected by the killers too?
Danny"s not great at the feely nice stuff.
But he'll get Sally to explain it to him.
Once it makes enough sense, he'll be approaching you.
He makes sure you know he's there. No sneaking.
He'll even stand back if it makes you calmer.
He may be kind of an ass, but killers stay united.
Slowly but surely he's going to build your trust and confidence.
He's going to teach you the basics.
Those survivors are going to regret messing with you.
Then he's going to have these gross mushy feelings about you.
Yeah, Sally's going to have to help him again.
You two make a great duo.
God help any survivors that were partially nasty to you.
Legion (Joey)
If you don't have a place to stay, Ormond is open.
You're a killer now. You don't have to worry.
Killers are family. You don't hurt family.
You don't seem to understand that yet.
It was Susie who first noticed how hesitant you were to approach.
The others soon realized why; the survivors were jerks to you.
Probably because you were so nice to the killers.
While Frank and Julie didn't seem to care, it was Joey who stepped up.
He never felt like he fit in anywhere.
He felt sympathy for your situation.
It took him a while to approach you.
Lots of peace offerings: snacks and sodas were what he thought was appropriate.
He's trying.
After talking for a few hours, lots of tears and demolishing all the snacks, you finally could place your trust in someone.
He then realized how alike you both were. How he wanted you to be by his side.
He always has his arm around you. You're important to him.
"Was it that survivor who shoved you? Want me to gut them?"
And he will. Because he loves you that much.
Leon S Kennedy
Leon was the only one who didn't reject you.
He could never do that to someone as kind and peaceful as you.
But you're gone now.
At least, that's what he thought.
Seeing you in a trial as a killer!
No, it couldn't have been you.
"(S/O) is... Is that you?"
It is!
He's overjoyed to see you alive.
But seeing what you've been turned into.
It breaks his heart.
In the middle of that trial, he's going to throw his arms around you.
You won't even have time to hide or run from him.
A few little sobs will echo in his voice.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry I couldn't protect you. I'm sorry I didn't help you more."
It wasn't fair! None of this was!
He wouldn't outright harm any of the other survivors.
But... Maybe he'll mess up the generator by "accident" and lead the killer over.
Maybe run a little slower to unhook.
You may be a killer now, but that isn't going to stop him from loving you.
He doesn't care what the others say. He loves you.
Huntress
Oh, you were that really nice survivor.
The one who stayed by her when she was hit in the head.
She wasn't hurt, but you wanted to make sure she was okay.
The other survivors used you as a shield.
It took her a moment to realize it was you.
So you were on their side now.
That's wonderful! She never liked having to hunt you down.
But you don't seem happy.
She doesn't really understand why someone wouldn't want to change sides when others were so cruel to you.
Until she realized that you weren't afraid of killing, you were afraid of rejection.
If that's the case, don't worry.
Anna will make you feel welcome.
She is going to kidnap you and bring you into her hut.
Food, shelter, safety. You can absolutely stay with her.
Don't be afraid. You're a killer now.
Your kindness as a survivor was remembered.
Now prepared to be dotted on and loved by someone who really cares.
Wraith
You. You're the survivor who still saw the human in him.
You treated him like a person when no one else did.
After a particularly bad trial, you stayed behind to comfort him.
Even taking a dive and dying for him.
You're a killer now.
He was relieved to see that you weren't thrown into the void.
And your kindness to the survivors?
Unnoticed. Disgusting. They treated you worse than trash.
How dare they!
He treated those who hurt you the most callously and more brutally.
He knows the pain of betrayal. How lost he felt when someone he trusted betrayed him.
He won't let you go through that alone.
He can't speak anymore, so finding a way to reach you was hard.
In order to make an impression, he handed you his little bell.
The bell his father gave Philip to ring when he was afraid and needed help.
You didn't quite understand until you rang the bell and he gently took hold of your hands.
You'd be safe. You'd be welcome.
He wasn't going to let you be afraid. He'll always be close by.
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tw vent[s], ignore this bassically i js wanna yell, it's long, sorry in advanced, you litterally do not need to read this, yadadadadayada
/nbh I feel so numb but at the same time I feel everything so fucking much I'm never sad, i'm deppressed I'm never angry, i'm fucking furious When i'm happy it feels like i'm choking on it but other times the lack of feeling scares me, why can't I be angry at them? Why aren't I sad because of this? Why can't I be happy for this? Why isn't this hurting Everything hurts and nothing can hurt me "Ok." Can make me think someone hates me but i don't feel nearly as hurt when someones yelling at me or doing something that is hurtful I feel stuck, like im repeating the same day but the world still feels like it's moving too fast 4 years ago feels like yesterday one hour feels like an eternity I want to keep everything in but it always comes spewing out I want to hate everyone who has ever done anything to me but i litterally physically cannot bring myself to because I know nobody is born wanting to fuck anyone else up, something has to happen to them. and when I learnt about what happened to them, i knew i couldn't, i litterally could not, for the love of god, hate them. It's easier for me to hate god, he's not real, he's supposed to be infalible, he has no regrets, he's okay to hate because he CAN help but is doing nothing, and he won't get any pushback from anyone. but everyone else around me seems to love that bitch, especially those who have been wronged the most by him, i litterally can't fucking get it Gonna sign out for a bit, maybe tommmorow aswell, love yall, take care of yourselves please
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Actually its a song about abuse. After the bridge, "She's running out again!" You can clearly hear the abuse that has been mistaken for just deppressive self loathing, because he starts begging, "Whatever makes YOU happy. Whatever YOU want. You're so fuckin special. God I wish I was special....but I'm a creep."
This girl left to make him feel anxiety over being abandoned, then when she came back he began instantly fawning for her approval again. Convinced so SO hard that he is the problem. That being a problem is just what he is and always will be. So he repeats what his assigned problem title is , "A Creep. A Weirdo." The fact he constantly thinks he is unworthy of any love is a sign of a very VERY deeply manipulated person.
That's not incely shit, that's abuse.
the fucked up thing is how "Creep" by Radiohead will really get your ass if you hear it at the wrong time. that shit can be stupid and overdramatic or it can have the weight of an atomic bomb dropped on your heart it just depends
#Literally youre so fukkin special I wish I was special but Im a creep Im a weirdo#What the Hell am i doing here?#I don't belong here!#Listen Whatever makes YOU happy! Whatever YOU want! You are SO fucking special#And before you tell me a guy cannot be abused like this by a girl stop please stop anyone can be abused by anyone#And emotional abuse is so so much easier to get away with than physical abuse bc it convinces you that you are making up the problem#Shout out to Jinx Monsoon who gave me a cover of this song#That I scream sing to in the car and made the theme song of the abusive relationship between two OPs
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ducks rants part three wooooooo or part four idfk I don't think anyone will read this I'm just putting it out there to see if anyone can relate
Im fucking tired man im stuck in an endless cycle of being too young to be friends with adults but being to weird for most kids my age and im sick of it because adults assume im an adult by the way i look and act despite the fact im 15 and as soon as they find out my age they're suddenly uninterested in being my friend.
Having to raise a fucking 30 year old woman while dealing with multiple pedophilic relationships at age 12 ages you man.
My last therapist was shocked at how self aware I am and how tired of the world I sound.
Apparently I act like a 40 year old man that realizes no matter what he'll never achieve his dreams by working a dead end job and is stuck in the workforce until he's literally too old to enjoy not having to work.
I'm trapped with the knowledge of the world but not the respect that tends to come with it.
I'm 15 and i already know so many vile things i wish i could have the ignorance that most teens have i wish i was able to feel invincible and on top of the world instead of knowing i'll probably be working a full time job way into my 70s just to afford a shithole apartment.
I wanna be out there making obvious mistakes and memories and go out with friends and do dumb shit like snorting pixie sticks or drinking at parties but instead i'm here trying to plan out how i'll survive once i'm 18 because the only way i'll manage to live is by working 20 hour shifts just to make enough for rent and food let alone anything else.
Im panicked for the future because politics are fucking ruining the world polution is getting worse and i probably have an entire damn barbie worth of plastic in my blood.
The world is ending and I'm forced to watch as the adults around me panic about elections and running out of retirement money.
The world is crumbling and I wish I could go back to being blissfully ignorant.
I know too much about politics i know too much about sex i know too much about emotions i know too much about the economy but not enough to benefit me in any way all i know is that were all fucking screwed and i have no one to vent to about it because i make adults uncomfortable and most my age dont understand the issues to the extent I need them to.
Maybe I should follow in my great great grandfather's footsteps and get a lobotomy like holy shit.
And don't read this and think I think I'm so smart. I know i'm not. i know im an idiot on a lot of things i'm not writing this as a “sigh i'm too smart and no one understands me!” i'm writing this as a way to cope with my loneliness and we're all gonna die mentality i'm trying to fix it but its hard
ima go rock back and forth while listening to music and imagining fantasy scenes because I can and you cant stop me
#rant#vent#god i'm so tired#long rant#sorry#god i'm deppressed#mom if you're reading this I'm not sorry
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Accidentally found that blog that made that one comic about a slasher and his bubbly happy-go-lucky gf (edit: found it again, it's @/bludragongal , go look at her stuff lol (DO NOT TAG HER PLEASE I AM FEAR)) thought "there should be like... A monster genre version of it"
My head started spitballing shit for it immediately after.
Concept under the cut because beeg
Human character: Sandra H. Prolly a goth girl (or at least like- not bubbly but also not deppressed, still can and WILL kill if she's angry enough, just like the og) with a ridiculous love and interest in animals, especially freaky creatures, flora and fauna and shit like that. By "ridiculous love and interest" i mean like- she loves these things so much her vibes walk up to you and say "dude idk bout you but i think she's autistic"
Monster character: Krang. Alien monstrosity that is currently hiding here and there because. It's. It's an alien. An extraterrestrial living being, stuck on earth and decided to just vibe lol. Instead of killing because yes, it's only gonna maul you if you piss it off or something, like- oh you slapped them? Hm. Death :). It's also highly smart, prolly learns how to speak english with a certain someone's help and he learns REALLY fast. Design wise i'm thinking it's based on the creatures from that horror movie called A Quiet Place, minus the hearing shtick and the feral is lessened down to like. Cat levels of gremlin. Yes it's also a smug, snarky and mischievous bastard, but that's not stopping the fluff potential.
The meeting: Sandra is walking around with friends after having set camp purely to vibe because god damn it it's nearly the end of the year and shit they get to have a break for once from their work and stuff, and they're all like chill and jokey, cracking the worst of jokes (some dark ones too, Jared you can't friggin' joke about INFIDELITY that's horrid nooo get smacked upside the head you jerk lol), and they suddenly hear screeching and growling from somewhere deeper in the forest, and one of them goes "ayo who's gonna check it out" and Sandra one proposes rock paper scissors to decide. Sandra loses and kicks the winner in the knee because man fuck you honestly.
Sandra walks deeper into the forest to find the source of the noise. Deeper and deeper and deeper... Until she finds a freakish, monstrous creature trying to break free from a bear trap, growling and screeching from the pain of the little cursed machine biting into it's flesh. Sandra gasps and runs over to the creature to get the bear trap off his leg, and it just growls lowly as a warning. No. Get away, life form. I can do it myself anyway. It's just a little primitive machine. It's smart but not enough to hold me back. Stay away. But she's stubborn and convinces the creature to let her help... It reluctantly accepts, and she pries the bear trap open, letting him get out of it.
She tells the creature that it's gonna call for her friends, who are also of her species, but it's not for anything malicious, it's to help him heal. The alien creature growls lowly as a form of expression Aka it's offended that Sandra is willing to help him THIS much when it can heal on it's damn own, but she insists because she genuinely cares a lot about it and doesn't want him to be hurt. The creature reluctantly accepts but only because he doesn't want to be too mean.
She calls for her friends, they find it and try to help (and control themselves, Andy no you can't take pics of him to post on your Instagram that's risky and besides you can't take mean comments towards you well at ALL) they help her heal the creature's wounds and done! He has bandages and shit! Usual health things! She asks him about his name and it just. Whispers in it's alien language. She doesn't understand it and asks again, to which the creature responds by grabbing a stick and writing on the dirt it's name... In the same alien language. Sandra just goes "i'll ask again later, you should learn english..." and it just growls lowly in disappointment like- god damn it i gotta learn english because human don't understand my language >:(
After that, Sandra waves goodbye and the creature runs away, back into hiding and vibing, and she and her friends go back to dicking around, not knowing it's not the last time she's gonna see it...
Their relationship: Krang develops a crush on Sandra not right after finding it or something like that- Krang is not familiar with human life forms and doesn't trust easily (also canonically semi tsundere lmao it's funny for me)- it's only developing a crush on Sandra once it decides to stalk her and spots her just. Vibing. Thriving happily in peace and tranquility without a care in the world.
She has a cat, she has a family, friends, she has a lot in her life... What does he have? Constant fear, worry, dread and anxiety from living in the wilderness, from having to hide from every single human, just so it can simply vibe. It takes shelter in sewers and caves and abandoned places, for crying out loud, it's lonely!
He's obviously not developing that attraction the moment it stalks her, no, they stalk her purely to learn because this human just. Saved me?? Human cares??? That's weird i should learn a bit more. It started as a little learning expirience, following her wherever, watching her do things just to learn a bit more of this particular human that decided to give him another chance in life.
Then it starts going a more "i wish that was me" route. It starts to feel envious of Sandra's peaceful life, her happiness and how comfortable she is in her own little world... It became a desire for a better, more comfortable life, following her wherever, watching her do things, just so calm and happy, without a care in the world... He has to take shelter in the most disgusting, lonely spaces just to have a tolerable chance of survival.
One day, it spotted Sandra walking around with her friends again, throughout a mall, supposedly planning to "watch that one movie they waited for so long to see", according to what it heard... It catches a glimpse of two men wearing a black disguise, making them nearly unidentifiable. It's not going to let them ruin Sandra's little joy, even if it's meaningless, it's joy nonetheless.
Two male young adults went missing that day, nobody knows what happened to them. Krang knows. They did it. Sandra's safe now and nobody has to know or get in their business.
After that, Sandra and her friends went walking back to their respective homes, gushing about the movie, just goofing off like they always do.
Sandra didn't expect the creature from a while ago to be in her house, playing with her dog. And Krang expected her to be happy to see him, but instead he got a very surprised /neg Sandra processing the fact there's the fucking creature in her god damn house what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck.
After that it's just a slice of life SLOW friends to lovers kinda thing, it learns english and finally answers the million ages old question /j: his name...
"So, funky thing... Now that you know english, what's your name?"
"..."
"I... Ammm... Krann..g"
"Krang, huh? It's a pretty name!"
"Pretty name for a pretty creature!"
"... Pret... Ty...?"
"Hrm... ////"
"Heheh! I'm Sandra, if you're wondering"
"... Pretty name... For a... Pret.ty... crea...ture"
"Eheheh... Thanks, i guess ////"
#little fun concept again lol#open concept#MAN THAT ENDING BIT WAS SO FUCKING HEART WARMING OH FUCK#WARM FUZZY APLENTY JESUS CHRIST
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"Uhhhh noise?? Maybe?? I dunno last time that happened felt random..." Six is being put to thinking hard. She doesn't think much usually.
"uhhhh OH MY ROBO-GOD I'M VERY LONELY AND VULNERABLE I SURE HOPE NO CREATURE SPAWNED FROM LONELINESS AND DEPPRESSION COMES TO FUCK ME OVER"
Six this is the stupidest shit you've ever done. Why are you like this.
Tera wakes up in her room, as usual.
But the house is abnormally silent...
Where is everyone?
"Nightmare?" She mumbles, looking around.
She's quite used to 'waking up' and not being quite awake.
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I hate when you know people mean well but they're so off the mark, it hurts you
#miranda talking shit#Yeah i love my boys. I love thrm to death but...#5/7 of them is from at least middleclass families and with parents with money+higher education#And only 1/2 of the remaining also have some mental issues...#And i know my friends are trying to... Idk pep me to... Do something with my life#With speeches of 'oh nothing is impossible and you can do what tou want'#Which is a nice sentiment but its not the reality ... I have more than one caareer i wouldnt be able to do even if i wanted#Bc of my health issues. They wouldnt accept me because of them#And god being motivated enough to study would be easier if i had anything i wanted#Which i dont. 'just do whay youre passionate about'#I'm passionate about ky friends. Im passionate about fictional things#But i dont have the skills to write/draw/design anything in that field#Talented and motivated people are struggling in that world. How would an below average deppressed person make it?#I love them but i dont think i can make them understand. The best shot at it would be me trying to explain my life and feelings but that#Would make me habe a breakdown in front of them and even then i dont think they could fully.... Get it#I know they mean well but these talks just make me more sucidal oops#Negative
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holy shit I think I just experienced a positive emotion.
#what the fuck what the fuck#I thought I was feeling happiness before but what the fuck was that oh my god#i'm... huh#what#is this what you fuckers feel all the time holy shit#maybe just pure zeal is different than actually feeling happy?#woah#it's like... nice and also not insane feeling?#I smiled involuntarily#I didn't know that actually happened to people#this sounds sad#maybe just getting exited isn't a substitute for actually feeling good.#sorry if you're my friend I do like talking to you but I am very deppressed
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Sometimes I feel like I'm on an entirely different planet. It's dark and barren and the only person there is me. Just me. All alone. Whatever happened in my past life, I'm sorry…
So can the pain stop now?
#i'm so fucking tired#this is the umpteenth time#why does this keep happening??#this god person#must spend extra time#making my life miserable#deppressed#deppresive#depressing thoughts#depression#dead inside#lonely#loneliness#where did my fire go?
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